11 des 07

Aduhh…Q blom bias istiqomah nulis di sini, kadang dah keburu capek ato lg dpat tugas seabrek. Hmm…actually, yesterday my mood was so bad, I had no spirit 2 run my life. I thought that I am the pity person in the world, who has nothing. I didn’t get anything. I lose my chance 2 be a announcer. I lost my chance 2 become a tutor, etc. I usually fail what I have done. So, I lose my confidence.
Besides, I also have a problem with my frenz. I think that nowadays, I am too sensitive. I realize my mistakes. Maybe, I often force my frenz, so they are afraid of me. I think that they are far away from me. We have different perspectives n we seem like, we can not be complete each other. I am so sad. Why I think we don’t know each other. I feel like I have no closed friend, I am alone. I have no friend that I can not tell story. Hmm….everthing is so useless. I don t know why, my friendship is mean les I s. Should I tell them what I am feeling, or I let it flows. And pretend nothing happen? I don’t know what should I do? I am confusing about it.
Oia, td Q ke baparda DIY buat wa2ncara, so Q pergi tanpa persiapan apa2, ya…jdnya asal nanya aja, nambah PD sih..hehehe sekalian nyelesaiin tugas PR. Trus, Q juga ikut kul bu NZZ, g nyangka juga yg dateng Cuma 4 org, so ibu na ngliatin Q terus, pas dia nanya2, ngarahnya ke Q, so dapet perhatian lebih gtu. Hm…tp, next week Q dpt jatah presentasi. Moga2 lancar yo…..